used to it now

im used to it now. i used to be hurt by it. but now, im used to it. is that a good thing? should i be used to it? or should i try to change it? but you know, every time i've tried to change how things work, it seems to hurt even more.... so what do i do? keep on going? or go through more pain and maybe things will change...... but even if i want to change things..... how? how do i do it? im used to it now. and i cant tell if its a bad thing. and i dont want anyone to help. because i dont want people wasting away their life to help me. and besides, who would? its just tyler. but hey, im used to it.