im an idiot

im an idiot, i have done the same STUPID mistakes and painful things for over 2 years. 2 YEARS!!!! how stupid could i be?!?!?!?!?! gosh!! please do me a favor and just erase my memory, move me somewhere else and let me start my life over. no. dont do that, thats overexagerrating. i do that alot. haha i guess why no one really takes my pain seriously. because i overexaggerate like a girl( no offense girls) and so everyone thinks that is no big deal. its only tyler being tyler. oh forget that then. apathy is a feeling that i am longing for right now. i am such a FREAKING IDIOT!!!!!!! please the next person to read this and see me, slap me, beat me up, hurt me in any way possible and i garuntee you it wont hurt NEARLY as bad as i do iright now....